Getting married today !!

Last day of work

What??!?! Finally ! The day has come. It's  my last day of work! I think that it's so Strange how sore my body is because I honestly haven't worked out or done anything too physical that would make it sore. But now here I am rubbing icey-hot all over myself. 

My parents come in tomorrow. 

My best friend comes in tomorrow.

Today and tonight are my last times with Danny to get all our crap together. Are we going to be able to do it???

Meh.... Not looking good. I won't be off until 5 but I'm still going to try my hardest. Then we can try to relax for maybe like a minute ? Second ? Maybe ?

I guess we will find out 

Stressed

07/26

Last night I had someone ask me are you nervous, excited, stressed?! What are you feeling??

I said yes. 

But today has mostly been stressed. I finally cried. It has been a minute since I've cried at anything other than commercials. 

Danny and I have always been good about being on each others team. We've always been strong about being a fan of one another but not lately. 

Lately were stressed, defensive, mad and always trying to plan the whole damn thing. I've been very fortunate to have a mother in law that has planned majority of it but there's only so much one person can do. 

Anyways, Danny made a comment about how we just aren't going to be able to get along or be on the same team until Saturday when we get married.

I lost it. I can't tell you how much that tore me up inside. 

We've talked more and I think it was good for me to cry. We're starting another game soon and I want to just be in sync with him. That's all. Because at the end of the day it's us. 

On the same team. 

Now I'm dying my hair. 

Friday

I just took time to write about everything that's been in between the days. 

It didn't save. 

It didn't post. 

So 

That sounds about right...

Crazy. Beyond. Crazy. 

Now Danny and I get to fight about things like tables. And my mother broke her hand and so there's all kinds of dilemmas there. 

Here we go. 

Last painting show as a single lady 

Ugh. Courthouse. Courthouse ! 

Painting not done by dog ;)

Life is sweet

It's my first show tonight at Pinots and I'm so nervous!! I spent the afternoon practicing and stressing about how to do certain frostings on the cupcakes as well as blending particular colors. I know deep down that it will probably be okay and the show will turn out well but I also know it's been about two weeks since I've been in there, trained and now I'm just going into the fire. Ugh ! I'm so nervous. 

I can do this. I can do this. 

I was made for this. 

Where did that day go ?

Yesterday was my bachelorette party and oh was it perfect. We decided to go more untraditional and not have a big, drunk penis accessory party. Instead, we chose to float down the river in a canoe ! My friends did such a great job on decorating, taking care of me and everything in between. I could not have asked for a better day trip than to a lake with close friends. 

Originally, I wanted to celebrate with just a few friends and go to a beach or something but with the wedding budget and life-there was no room for yet another trip. Also after we made the wedding list there certainly was a lot of people that we were unable to invite. So with that being said, I told my friend Kate to just invite everyone so no more feelings were hurt in my life. 

Boy did that backfire.

Only a one person other than my close friends showed up. But I did however have ample amounts of messages relaying why they could not go out/make it or whatever the case. 

I've always tried to protect myself from people and getting too close because I will get hurt but that also never allows me to have an actual relationship with people. And the people I do know, the relationships I have made are to stay. And live long with. And if every day were like yesterday, it would be a great great great life of friendship. I love them so much

Vows

Thursday I finished writing our vows.

Thank you for being the anchor in my life. You keep me grounded, you will never let me sink and I promise to do just the same. 

I take you to be my best friend, my faithful partner and my one true love. 

I promise to encourage you, inspire you and love you truly through the good times and the bad. 

I will forever be there to laugh with you, to lift you up when you are down and love you unconditionally through all our crazy adventures in life together. 

I will keep you anchored in my heart and soul for as long as we both shall live.  

And I also bought these pretty flowers so our place would feel more like home.